Never easy to say good bye!
Today is the saddest day of my life! I had to say goodbye to Courtney which was the hardest thing I ever had to do!

Sonny showed up to see baby John and I told him how much I missed his sister.

I told Sonny that I wanted to call her but then I remembered that she was gone.

Sonny tried to reassure me about the baby knwoing that I want to be a mother to him.

Sonny told me that little John knows that I love him and that I will take care of him.

Jax came into the room and asked me if I was ready to go!

I said yes and surprisingly enough he and Sonny were civil to each other for a change.

I was extremely touched by the way they were speaking to one another.

Before Sonny left I told him I would see him there.

When Sonny left I suggested that Jax by the house next to mine. He told me that I was crazy.

I started joking around with him and quickly apologized to him when he didn't find what I said amusing.

When Jax and I arrived for the funeral I saw everyone who loved Courtney was there. Even Alexis Davis was there and she and Ric had no time for Courtney.

Janine Courtney's mom was there to say good by to Courtney.

Nikolas made an ass out of himself in the church and verbally attacked everyone that was there.

Some of the people there did deserve what they got,but geez he really needs to lay off, sure we are all upset but he's an emotional wreck. I think he'd been drinking or something he was so pathetic.


Elizabeth showed up out of respect for Nikolas because he was with her but little miss priss Emily was a no show.

Anyways, I saw Michael at the funeral and Jason was there too even the Quartermaines were there and I think they are the biggest hypocrites alive.

They always seem to be where they aren't wanted even when they hated the person they show up at their memorial just for appearances sake.

What a bunch of phonies?

Mike tried to do a eulogy for Courtney and he broke down in tears luckily Sonny took over and spoke so elequentely about his sister and I was reduced to tears.

I hugged Michael to me and then it was my turn to talk about my dear sweet friend.

I told everyone I was going to talk about Courtney and then said " No I am going to talk to her!"

I told everyone what was in my heart and how truly sad I was but glad she was there for me when I needed her.

I talked about how she was the only woman that I got along with and that I even disapproved of her marriage to Jax but we got over that.

I quickly learned that she could trust her own instincts .

I had to put my own misgivings about Jax aside to keep my friendship with her.

I watched as Jason walked over to Courtney's picture and I walked over to him and he told me that I was a good friend to Courtney. I told him I could use a friend right now and he gave me a hug.

When Michael and I went to Courtney's we played with the snow globe I gave her.

There were no words to tell each other how we were feeling.

Forgiveness
I found mama at the cemetary and told her I was sorry for what I did to her and Tony in the past.

I told her I knew I shouldn't be there and that she could tell me to go if she wanted to.

She accepted my apologyand told me it wasn't necessary.

I hurt her so much in the past and I am so glad that she found it in her heart to forgive me.

I have to admit I regret everything that I said and did to her I really was horrible.

Mom told me that her marriage to Tony was already falling apart even before I came on the scene and it was long before BJ died too.

I told mom that I was humbled by her compassion and capacity for forgiveness. She hugged me and I felt a weight had been lifted off my shoulders and in my heart.

Mom said she wanted me there with her! I told her I would be.


I arrived at Tony's memorial service confronted by Luke and I practically bit his head off.

Alot of Tony's friends and colleagues were present at his funeral.

I heard mom ask Luke if he'd seen me and he gestured to where I was sitting behind them in a pew.

Mom eyed me when she turned around " Remember what I said I need you!"

I nodded my head and quickly got up to sit with her and Luke.

Luke got up and gave a moving Eulogy, man I never knew he was such a good speaker he had me in freakin tears.

Accusations
Jax makes me so mad!

He accused me of Jax accuses Carly of having a hidden agenda where John is concerned.

I wasn't doing anything wrong and that bastard assume other wise.

Sonny came to see the baby and I told him he shouldn't be there.

I told him that I don't forgive that easily when he apologized to me for making assumptions he shouldn't have.

I told Jax about a house that was for rent near my place.

I hope he takes the bait and moves in next door it would be so good for the boys to have their cousin next door.

Hope
Jason and I opened the case and found the antidote in it.

Unfortunately we were found with it by one of Miss Suttons goons.

I tried to reason with them like I would Michael but they were just not buying it, so I did what I usually do best play possum to fake them out.

I hit them and then Jason and I hurried back to the hospital. I called Jax and told him we were on our way.

When we got to the hospital though the swat team threatened to shoot Jason and me. They told us to put our hands up when we tried to tell them about the virus.

Luckily Patrick was walking outside and he told them that we were with him.

We arrived inside and Sam and the baby got the antidote.

I told Jax to believe that the baby will get better and that I saw that his colour was coming back to normal and that his breathing was better.

Jax told me that I was only seeing what I wanted to see.

But I know I am right because I have faith in the little guy cause we bonded.

My one hope is that everyone else gets the anitdote and that they all get well again.

We found out that the baby's health had stabalized after he was given the antidote and tha Jax and I watched the baby as he lay in the incubator.

Hope is just around the corner I just know it!

The Antidote, Uncle Luke and the mystery woman
Ouch damn it! I woke up and found out that I had a sore head. I had blood on my hand.

I left a clue for Jason and Luke to come find me at the haunted star before the goons took me there.

I yelled at the woman who held me hostage.

I found out she was a former Port Charles resident.

She told me her huband was one of the Partners in Crylium.

Thank Gd! Uncle Luke and Jason came when they did and saved my ass.

I found out that Uncle Luke knew the woman whom he called Miss Sutton.

Luke told me I looked pale and I fell down next thing I knew there was gun fire and Miss Sutton disappeared.

I told Jason she took the antidote after Jason took off I asked Luke is he was all right and he reassured me that he was.

I helped Luke take care of the wound he received from the gun fire.

I told him we should go to the hospital,but he refused to do so.

Jason came back and he told us Miss Sutton and the antidote were gone.

What a freakin' bitch I can't believe she won't help those people at the hospital that are sick with the virus.

Jason and me went to the airport to find Miss Sutton and I found the antidote.

I hope to god its all in there!

Carly Corinthos Super Sleuth
As I looked at baby John I was dead quiet.

He is so helpless and I just want to make sure he's all right!

Jax and I watched the doctor looking over him and when he came outside the room he told us the prognosis wasn't good.

Jsx got upset and I told him to not give up on baby John.

I yelled at him to fight for his son and give him a reason to fight to live.

I told him to prove to him that he believes in him .

Jax listened to meand thanked me for saying what I did.

I heard Luke, Lucky and Robin's father talking. I told them not to arrest Jason.

Luke said they wouldn't he told Robin's father that I was his niece.

He told me that Jason wouldn't be arrested,but that he needed my help.

He showed me an empty chocolate wrapper. It made me look at him like he was out of his mind.

I yelled at Luke and Robert and told them that they blew the chance to get the anitdote.

I went back to the metro court and found out that the person whom had the chocolate stayed at Jax and my hotel.

I decided to go into the room and snoop through the guests things and found out that the guest was in fact a woman and not a man like I was told.

I found women's underwear in a bag that I found in the closet.

I heard the door open and snuck into the closet after putting things back they way they were.

I stood in the closet and spied on the woman who looked like she was on edge.

She put the case with the antidote in a drawer and I watched her leave the room.

When she left I tried to open the drawer up but it was locked.

I called Jason and I told him what I found that's the last thing I remember.

Baby John
Standing there with Nikolas and talking to him about Courtney was tough I started to cry.

There was Jax with us and he refused to let the doctor take blood from the baby.

I wonder what's wrong with him not wanting the baby to get blood drawn from him.

It kinda of reminded me of when Uncle Luke insinuated that he had something on Jax awhile ago.

I yelled at Jax for disallowing the doctor to take the babies blood.

He's freaking insane did he not realize that the doctor is just trying to help the baby.

I swear he's freaking insane!!

Thankfully Nikolas convinced him to let the doctor take the babies blood.

Patrick approached me later and told me that he wanted to take a blood sample from me since I injected myself with the antidote.

I agreed to it.

He called me superwoman for doing what I did in the Maarkham islands.

Man he's gotta be nuts for calling me that Jason would just calling me crazy.

Elizabeth asked me about Lucky and I told her Lucky probably was having phone problems.

I went into the nursery to see the baby and Jax was upset he told me that baby John had the virus.

I told him that we would find a way to save him and do it for Courtney.

Home
Sonny and I talked and he told me that all he wanted was for me to be happy.

Emily interupted our conversation when she told us the news that Courtney had died.

Man I can't believe this is really happening.

I refused to believe it and started to cry. I can't believe she's gone till I see for myself.

Sonny of course was shaken by the news after all she was his sister.

Sonny and I went to the hospital to say good bye to Courtney.

Sonny's words were so heart felt and I was in tears.

I stood quietly and let him say his peace.

I need to be there for him because thst is what Courtney would have wanted me to do.

I still can't believe that she's gone her death was so sad.

A beautiful young mothers life ripped from this world and from her babies life. She didn't even have a chance to bond with the poor little thing.

I said my goodbyes to Courtney and I told her all of the things that were on my mind about our friendship.

I promised her that I would look out for the baby and he would know her through me.

Man, I couldn't stop crying I lost one of my best friends in the whole world.

Courtney was someone who didn't take my crap and who would stand up for me if need be.

I talked to Elizabeth about Lucky and about Courtney and I saw Jax with the baby through a window later on.

I asked him if he had held the baby yet!

He told me he hadn't and I told him maybe he should because the baby needs to know he's loved.

Going back home
Yea so me and Jason argued over him not leaving me behind to find more information to help us.

He told me I was being stupid for injecting the needle into my arm.

Again I told him that we make a great team.

I told him I have good instincts! He said " Sometimes!"

He told me that I distract him from the job he's supposed to be doing when we work together.


I told him that he's always there for me even when I lie.

I called Sonny and he told me he was out of the hospital.

I passed the phone to Jason when he asked about Sam and Sonny told him what was going on.

Jason told him that he's going to the hospital to see Sam.

I went over to Sonny's as soon as we landed and I
told him that I wanted to see the boys.

I told him what had happened and Emily walked down the stairs and welcomed me back.

She was awefully nice to me I dunno what's up her butt the little bitch hates me.

She told me she tucked the boys into bed and then she left.

I could tell by the look on Sonny's face that he had had sex with Emily.

The hint of afterglow on his face gave it away.

It doesn't surprise me with the way she's been mooning around him like a dog in heat.

The antidote
Jason gave me hell for injecting myself with the antidote!

I felt like absolute crap but if it works it will be worth it.

I opened up the fridge and found a beer. Jason told me not to drink it because I just had the antidote.

I opened it and drank it anyway. I started talking about my adoptive mother Virginia and Mama and how neither of them could hold onto a man.

I always could hold on to Jason and have him be there for me.

I remembered the summer in Florida when I was a kid and how I could hear my adoptive mother and the latest guy she was with screwing like a couple of pigs.

I know it was a crass analogy but he whatever works man.

I heard Jason telling Lucky to go home.

I yelled his name as I got up from the floor NS Ais my fever broke.

He touched my face and said that I was alot cooler.
I started feeling dizzy again and I noticed that Lucky put the vile of antidote in his pocket.

Bad guys came in and shot at us and we hit the floor we found out later that they shot at the vile of antidote in Lucky's pocket.

Jason hit a goon and I told Lucky not to worry about the antidote breaking.

Jason yelled at the goon to tell us where the rest of the antidote was.

He told us it was all gone.

In exasperation I said oh great and then Jason, Lucky and I found some information about a shipment that was being sent to Port Charles.