Forgiveness
I found mama at the cemetary and told her I was sorry for what I did to her and Tony in the past.

I told her I knew I shouldn't be there and that she could tell me to go if she wanted to.

She accepted my apologyand told me it wasn't necessary.

I hurt her so much in the past and I am so glad that she found it in her heart to forgive me.

I have to admit I regret everything that I said and did to her I really was horrible.

Mom told me that her marriage to Tony was already falling apart even before I came on the scene and it was long before BJ died too.

I told mom that I was humbled by her compassion and capacity for forgiveness. She hugged me and I felt a weight had been lifted off my shoulders and in my heart.

Mom said she wanted me there with her! I told her I would be.


I arrived at Tony's memorial service confronted by Luke and I practically bit his head off.

Alot of Tony's friends and colleagues were present at his funeral.

I heard mom ask Luke if he'd seen me and he gestured to where I was sitting behind them in a pew.

Mom eyed me when she turned around " Remember what I said I need you!"

I nodded my head and quickly got up to sit with her and Luke.

Luke got up and gave a moving Eulogy, man I never knew he was such a good speaker he had me in freakin tears.