THE ISLAND
Dear Diary,

Today Jason and I were at the hotel that Uncle Luke stayed at.

We were informed that he disappeared from the room and that he drank in the bars. Yea like that's a surprise! He never could resist a good shot of whiskey!

The man he spoke to told us to stay in our room and I over heard Jason talking to Max.


I asked about Michael and got on the phone with him! I told him to do what Max says and that we'd be home soon.

I asked Jason " What do we do if we don't find the cure?What happens to our loved ones?"

I know I am worried I hope Michael didn't hear it in my voice.

Jason told me if I want to go home, go home,but not to go to the hospital.

I told him I wanted to see Sonny and Michael he said " No that either I go home to Morgan or stay with him!"

He told me " If you go take a commercial flight I need the plane!"

I decided to stay and help Jason after all he and I are a team.

I came out from having a shower and Jason was on the phone with Stan. We got a hold of the Crylium industries number and Jason told the man to let Lucky go!

He damn well better or we are gonna jump on that pricks ass like there is no tomorrow.

HOT ON THE HEELS
Dear Diary,

Today I was with the Rush guy and I started asking him questions about his company Crylium.

He told me I asked entirely too many questions and then I told him fine that if he didn't want to talk we had to discuss the price.

I told him 1000 for the night and 1500 for extras if he wanted a really good time.

The jerk started pawing me and I was relieved when Jason appeared out from the shadows.

We asked Rush questions about the Monkey and he said the monkey was long gone.

Jason knocked him unconcious when he didnt' tell us anything more that we wanted to know.

Michael called me and told me that he was bored sitting in the cafeteria and that he wanted to go see Sonny.

I told him I would come and see him soon and then Jason and I went to the hospital again.

As we stood outside talking the cell phone rang again and it was Michael again.

He told me that he went loking for his dad and I asked him where he was.

He told me that he had gotten out of the cafeteria and that he snuck away from mama.

Man that kids got some spunk let me tell you! He reminds me so much of myself when I was his age!

I asked him what floor he was on and he said the sixth floor.

I told him to wave at me from the window so I could see him and I saw him waving.

Elizabeth was near by and I heard her tell Michael that she wanted to talk to me.

She told me that the virus was man made and that she wanted to talk to Jason.

They talked for a bit and then we went off to find out more information.

She told us that Lucky had been taken and that she wanted Jason to find him.

Jason agreed and then we decided to take off on a man hunt.

Whatever we find out I hope to god it helps saves the lives of the people we love.

Circumstances
Dear Diary,

Today Jason and I got held at gun point by the swat team.

We lied and told them we had just arrived there so they left us alone after that.

Justice talked to Jason and he told told Jason that the name of the guy who owned the car that shot at us was named Rush.

Jason was gung ho on tracking the SOB,but I told him that I wanted to go back into the hospital and be with Sonny and Michael because they need me.

Jason said no I shouldn't because I couldn't risk getting sick myself.

He said either I go home to Morgan or I go with him well as usual I decided to go with Jason to find out what was going on.

I called Sonny's phone to talk to him but Emily answered the phone.

I told her that I needed to speak to him and she said he was very weak.

I told her I knew that cause I was the one who brought him in. Duh tell me something I don't know you freakin little twit.

Anyways I heard Michael in the background and I asked her what he was doing there. He was supposed to be in the cafeteria with everyone else.

Emily told me she already had that discussion with him and then I spoke to Sonny for a short time.

A little while later me and Jason headed over to Metro court to do some investigating.

I followed the men while Jason went into Rush's room and I saw a hooker walk into the hotel.

I asked her what she was doing there and she asked me what business it was of mine.

Well anyways I offered her big money to leave and then I posed as a hooker to get to rush. I hope he buys my act.

Conspiracy
Dear Diary,

Michael told me about the chimp that was at Sam and Jason's.

He said he wanted to eat banana's like chimps do and I told him that chimps eat vegetables. I hope he bought the lie.

Sonny lost his balance and I told him he had a fever when I touched his forehead.

I helped Sonny put his coat on and I told him that I was taking him to the hospital.

I told him he was not argue with me.

We got to the hospital the cops pointed a gun at us.

Michael yelled at the cops and said that Sonny was sick.

Earlier I told Sonny that Michael is like him.

LOL Sonny told me that he was more like me than anyone.

I know he's right I can see it when Michael cops an attitude or tries to get his point across. He's a Spencer all right! He doesn't take an guff from anyone.

Later on Emily was attending to Sonny and I told them that Michael was in the coffee shop.

I saw Jason run by me and he told me he was looking for the chimp so I of course followed him.

Jason and me managed to leave the hospital un noticed and we saw the chimp run off when he saw us.

We saw him jump into a vehicle that was shooting at us.

What I want to know is what the hell is going on?

OPEN MOUTH INSERT FOOT
Today I talked to Noah and I told him I knew about his health problems.

Patrick overheard the conversation and he yelled at Patrick for telling me about it.

Patrick has a right to talk about what concerns him. I was only trying to help.

Noah needs to lighten up on Patrick. Of course they got into a shouting match and then Patrick yelled at me for even discussing the situation with his dad.


He said he didn't like me sticking my nose in where he felt it didn't belong.

I yelled at Patrick for complaining about his dad. I swear you try to help people and they snap at you.

I ran into Emily at Kelly's and thanked her for looking after Sonny and the boys.

She acted cold towards me. Did I say or do something wrong?

I had dinner with Sonny and the boys and it was like old times again.

Deception
Dear Diary,

So I was at Sonny's and I kissed him.

I told him I cared about him still and that's why I did it. I can't stand the thought of Emily with Sonny.

He yelled at me for doing it. Poor little miss prissy pants ran out. Aww I upset her little feelings.

I told Sonny the was scaring me with the drinking and I told him that I'm glad I kissed him so Emily would go back to her old life.

Sonny still thinks I'm crazy,but I told him that I didn't care Emily thought we were back together.

He said " What are we supposed to do? Say when we're not together?"

I told him we would say it didn't work out.

Jason showed up at Sonny's and I told him that I'd rather have Emily blame Sonny and me for what happened.

Anyways I went to the hospital and asked Robin where Patrick was. Of course she gave me a snide remark and when I saw Patrick she interefered into our conversation.

Yea and people think I'm an intrusive bitch.

Patrick told Robin to butt out of our conversation and that he can take care of himself.

We left her eating our dust and headed over to the metrocourt where we got ourselves a room.

Patrick said he liked my using him. Ha ha he wishes.

Once upon a time I would have acted on my hormones,but I told him I've changed.

Patrick started to open up to me and I think we are going to be good friends.

I need a friend like Patrick around he and I are more alike than I care to admit.

Patric told me that his father blamed himself for his wifes death.

I told him again that I knew what it was like to resent a parent. I know what the hell I am talking about I wish he'd freakin listen to me for once.

I told Patrick that mama and Noah were lovers once and he told me he knew because of the way they look at each other.

I think honestly that with all this lying and resentment going around that I should take the high road out and just remove myself from it!

Yea right like that's going to happen!

Confidant
Dear Diary,

I told Patrick that I am not easily distracted by a man's attentive nature.

He told me he wasn't either! He told me that we should get back to what we were talking about.

I told him we could be friends.

Patrick told me he thinks he would be no good as a father. I told him that parenting can be paralyzing at first,but that I eventually got used to the idea.

Patrick got a call from Robin I wonder what the hell she wants?

I showed up at Sonny's and he asked me why I was there.

I told him I needed to pick up Morgans blanket cause he couldn't sleep without it.

God Sonny was in a testy mood I ended up telling Max to leave us alone when Max interupted us.

I told Sonny I wasn't there to butt into his business and I sensed something was wrong with him.

Sonny asked me if I really wanted to hear what happened?

I told him I would never get used to him being with another woman and that I knew he would never get used to me being with another man.

He yelled at me when I told him I could call Jason.

As usual I would not let things go! Its what I do when I am concerned about the man I love.

Sonny confided in me that he was worried that he would show Emily he was lying to her if he hid the truth when she looked into his eyes.

I told him not to show her his eyes then!

It was like old times deep down I know when Sonny loves someone he loves them completely,but is always afraid of disapointing them or causing them to get hurt by rival mob families.

I hope that he continues to talk to me because I know him! he and I are so much alike sometimes it scares me.

PATRICK
Dear Diary,

Well today I told the staff to order whatever it is they needed while Jax is out of town.

Patrick taught Michael how to put a spoon on his nose. It was so cute seeing him playing with Michael and Morgan like that.

It made me laugh.

I told the boys it was time for cake and ice cream. I think Patrick is starting to grow on me.

He is so good with my boys!

Anyways when it got late I told Latisha to take the boys home. I told them not to give Latisha a hard time before they left with her.

I called Patrick an ego maniac when he did some bragging about himself and he denied it of course.

He is so cocky and sure of himself!

I opened up to Patrick about my past and told him he should give his dad a break.

I know first hand what its like to have a strained relationship with a parent.

Mama and I never see eye to eye on anything most of the time. We both are strong willed and seriously stubborn.

I told Patrick to give his dad a chance to fix things.

Patrick asked me to dance and I accepted so we went outside.

I told him he would make a great father because of the the way he played with Michael.

He told me its not going to happen!

You know sometimes you are wrong about things and I think Patrick is one of those people who will be surprised along the way.

Once he does have kids and he holds them in his arms he will change his mind I am sure of it.

The Voice of reason
Dear Diary,

While I talked to Jason everyone in the court house saw Manny approaching Sam and talking to her.

Man she looked terrified! Jason grabbed him and pushed him up against a wall. To protect his woman.

Dad wanted to have him arrested for assaulting Manny,but the creep actually said no.

I don't but the I'm changed routine! I know everyone thinks I'm a pain in the ass,but Manny is worse than I am.

I paced up and down the hallway while Sonny and Jason talked and Sam was nowhere to be found.

I left the courthouse and showed up at Jason ans Sam's to talk to him about Sonny and Emily.

I told him that I needed a reality check and then proceeded to tell him what happened when Sonny didn't show up and pick up the boys.

I told Jason I didn't know if I was being paranoid or not,but I felt like Emily was using the boys to get closer to Sonny!

I ain't gonna have that not at all! Jason promised me that he would talk to Emily.

I went over to Sonny's and walked in on a conversation between him and Emily.

Emily left when she got a phone call and I told Sonny he and Emily were a disaster waiting to happen.

He told me not to butt into his business and I told him it wasn't about me it was about our family.

I felt that the boys would end up being confused because of all of this.

I told him he should do the right thing and let her go.

I sure as hell hope he listens to me because someone is going to get hurt.

I don't want it to be him or the boys or even Emily for that matter.

Sonny told me that he and Emily have feelings for each other.

I told him it would destroy his family and his business if the relationship continued.

He told me Jason would have to accept it.

Are you freakin kidding me? Jason is not going to ever accept the relationship between the two of them.

I know Jason did the same thing with Courtney and Sonny reacted exactly the same way,but man this is the same little girl that he and I gave the sex talk to a few years back.

I don't think its right at all, he should find a woman like Robin or Alexis at least they are tolerable to be around.

Advice for the love sick
I called Sonny because he didn't pick up the boys like I asked him too.

I am so mad at him forgetting that he has responsibilities that need taking care of.

I told him I was at work and that I needed him to take the boys.

Nikolas showed up to ask me where Courtney is. I told him I couldn't betray her confidence. He kept asking me to tell him where she is as if I would he is stupid.

Michael wasn't eating properly and I told him to get cracking and eat his food. Sometimes I wonder why that kid has to be so disrespectful? I don't know where he gets it from!

I refused to tell Nikolas where she has gone he guessed that I told Jax where she is. What is he a psychic now?

Nikolas insinutated that I am jealous of Emily and I still refused to tell him where Courtney is.

I saw Michael throw a muffin around and I told him he would not see another video game in his life time if he did it again.

I don't like being strict with him but the kid has got to learn some manners. Food is for eating not for throwing.

I finally caved and gave Nikolas Courtney's number where she is staying at.

Emily showed up and I told her to go after Nikolas,but she said no.

I told little miss prissy pants not to use my kids to get close to Sonny. I told her the romance between her and Sonny would go south because she would destroy him.

I told her I don't want her anywhere near him.

She thinks I still want Sonny she doesn't know what the hell she's talking about or does she?

I told Emily that her family and Elizabeth warned her against Sonny and for once I actually agree with Elizabeth.

She told me that Jason would accept the relationship soon enough and get used to the idea! Yea right hello can we say dillusional?

I told her I felt sorry for her because of the rape and,but I told her she doesn't understand what its like when Sonny gets agry with you.

She really is a clueless wonder, I know first hand about Sonny and his temper I sruvived and lived to tell the tale.

I even asked her if Sonny already asked her to go away with him. I know the score I've been there done that bought the tee shirt! The man is charming and will convince a woman to do anything for him.

As soon as she left I called Jason and told her that we need to talk.

I arrived back at the courthouse in time to hear Manny's sentencing.

He got off with involuntary man slaughter what a crock of crap that is.

I dragged Jason off to talk to him once the sentencing was over and left Sam on her own.

Seriously this thing with Sonny and Emily needs to be nipped in the bud.